January 14, 2011

Fated Friendships

It is strange to see the hand that fate will deal you. In this case, I’m referencing friends that seem as if they wouldn’t have a single thing in common, yet they prove the old saying of opposites attract. When our first semester of the education program drew to a close, my close circle of likeminded friends were all reflecting on how we met. I’m sure it’s of little to no interest to the reader, but indulge me, if you will.

I had been told that the people that were in our class were going to be in all our classes until we graduated. (That is, of course, with the exception of elementary and secondary education majors going their separate ways for the methods courses.) Going in to class, it is great to have someone that you already know. I was fortunate to have a long-time friend starting the Teacher Education Program at the exact same time.

I knew Heath since we were in elementary school; we were supposed to graduate the same year, but I skipped second grade. We weren’t really close until community college, surprisingly, since we were in band together. At our school, the band was more important than the football team, it seemed, and we were a huge family of two hundred. In community college, we bonded over general nerd activities (Magic: The Gathering, Dungeons and Dragons, anime, etc.). By the time we reached UAH, we were carpooling and discussing deep topics on our, almost hour long, expedition to school.

As we were introducing ourselves in class, we were paired up. Knowing one another already, Heath and I naturally paired up. We were told to find out about the other person and introduce them to the class and they would do the same for you. I remember rolling my eyes at three girls in the class in particular:

One of the girls seemed to be a Jesus freak. Being agnostic, I try to steer away from religious discussions, especially when I am afraid of offending someone’s views. She mentioned going on retreats and mentoring, or something of the sort. (I admit I had a hard time remembering everything about everyone; this was heightened by the fact that it was an 8 a.m. class.) That seemed to be the biggest point of the presentation, other than the fact that she was a mother.

Two girls presented together and I automatically had a feeling that I would not get along with either of them. Both these girls were involved in beauty pageants and modeling; one was in a Lifetime movie, even (and the first Hannah Montana movie, even though she hates to admit that one). One girl graduated at the age of 16 and got her associates degree in psychology by 18. The other girl was in the army; because of a few family members of mine that are in the military, I’m wary of those in service. Not only that, but she is Catholic; however, the Catholic aspect doesn’t deter me as much as would be thought, since my boyfriend is of the same faith.

What followed rang true with the other old phrase of “don’t judge a book by its cover”.

Heath and I were in the student center, discussing Lord of the Rings for some odd reason. Out of my peripheral vision, I noticed a girl that was in our class sitting near us. I do not remember who initiated conversation first, but Jennifer – the girl who I identified as the Jesus freak girl – was soon sitting with us discussing Lord of the Rings, and, more impressively to me, Dragonlance.

After possibly fifteen minutes of conversation, the other two girls approached us. They were asking something about our next class, I hardly remember by this point. While Jennifer and Ashlie – the Catholic-Army-Beauty Queen – discussed their children, I told Kacy – the model/actress that graduated at 16 – that I was impressed by her achievements. Kacy promptly told me not to be, since she was homeschooled. Somehow, the conversation shifted to a television show called “Toddlers and Tiaras” and the estrogen level began to spike. Never exactly being a girly girl, I was just as lost as Heath was and we proceeded to discuss World of Warcraft.

The odd part about our relationship is that we all felt like loners – or at least three of us.

Ashlie, after being discharged on medical reasoning and recovering from her amnesia, felt as if she needed to make the shift to civilian life. Sometimes, it is awkward because she’ll be discussing openly how to kill people, rip their ears off, or make bombs out of everyday objects, but we quickly got used to it. She’s still pretty rough around the edges at times, being very blunt and hardly afraid to hurt anyone’s feelings. We joke that she has her lawyer on speed dial and will call him in a heartbeat to sue, but it’s true. Ashlie is like a momma bear, and not only with her baby, but with us, too.

Kacy is only 18 and a junior in college. I hate to fall fate to the classic stereotype of homeschooled students being “socially retarded” (which I will save that for a later blog), and Kacy was far from socially retarded. Regardless, there is always an odd transitional period. Being from Tennessee, she was out of her element in unfamiliar territory minus a few friends and her boyfriend. Kacy is often the responsible one; she keeps everything from class and knows when everything is due – often, she has it done in advance.

These three girls are some of my best friends. I don’t know how I would have made it through my first block of education classes if it weren’t for Heath, Jennifer, Ashlie, and Kacy. It’s weird how fate matches you up, but I guess they needed me just as much as I needed them.

January 9, 2011

Growing Up

“We’re adults now. When did that happen? And how do we make it stop?” – Grey’s Anatomy

I’m not a huge Grey’s Anatomy fan, but I was watching Desperate Housewives on Lifetime (which is several seasons behind, might I add), and really didn’t care to find the remote and change the channels when it went off. Knowing it wasn’t a terrible show, and able to tell from the opening that it was one of the first few episodes, I decided to leave it on. I believe an episode into it, I heard this quote, which really resounded with me.

I’ve been thinking a lot about responsibility, adulthood, leaving the nest, and starting my life as most of my peers have done. Being an only child, and sharing a house with my pretty lax mother, I am having trouble with the concept of moving out – even at the age of 21 and knowing that I will soon be graduating from college. She is not trying to get me to move out; actually, it’s quite the opposite. I have to admit, it’s a pretty sweet deal in that all I have to do is go to school (I would assume make good grades, but I am driven to do that regardless) and she provides a house, my car, food, and everything else I may need.

Of course, going to school twice a week and laying around the house for the rest of the time began to make me feel a bit like a bum, so I decided I would finally get a job (not that I wanted a job, mind you, but because I felt like it was time for me to do something with my time). I’ve been reluctantly at Walmart for nearing a year now. In that time, the only big purchase I have made is that I completely upgraded my computer, costing $800. I still need to replace the monitor and speakers, but that would be at maximum, $300. The rest of the money, I save. For what? I’m not entirely sure. (Though, I am considering getting an e-reader.)

Perhaps the real reasoning why this quote struck me as it did was because I was lying on the couch, at one in the afternoon, still in my pajamas, playing Pokémon Platinum. Granted, I was still recovering from my wisdom teeth removal.

It’s just a striking realization to know that I will soon be graduating. After graduation, I will be eligible for a career (believe me, cashier is not a career). I would feel odd being an elementary school teacher and still living at home with my mother, too, so I would need to move out. If I moved out, I would have to have someone with me, because I get severely depressed when left alone for vastly extended periods of time. What would that mean for me and Zach? Would we get married after graduation or would we end up waiting? This is an inevitable chain of events which I am highly reluctant to set off. I know it’s just a matter of time before it happens, though.

When did I become an adult? Is adulthood something brought upon by age, by the feeling of responsibility, or is it something else? How do I make it stop? If I could stop it, would I really want to?

All of that being said, I am still reminded of a quote from Dr. Who (which I haven’t ever really watched, I just happened upon the quote years ago and fell in love):

“What’s the point of growing up if we can’t act childish sometimes?”

January 4, 2011

Together We Will Ring in the New Year

It seems strange that I am welcoming myself back to the world of blogging after a nearly four year hiatus from it. What could it be that would draw me back to the seemingly pointless activity such as blogging? Well, I’d like to think that it is because my boyfriend told me a lot of my old tweets were hilarious and that inspired me to do something without such a strict character limit. I’d like to think that is the reasoning, at least.

I know what the world may be thinking “Oh joy. Here is another blogger to waste more of my bandwidth. I hope they’re not going to cry about how their boyfriend/girlfriend didn’t call them last night or how someone at school started a new rumor.” There are very few things I will limit myself to writing, but there are a few things I would like to promise you that I will not do, blog-related.

I will try to reserve this space as an “angst-free” environment to spare everyone from another seemingly teenage blog used to chronicle everyday life and gossip that is unimportant to – well, let’s be honest – everyone. I do not promise, however, to keep my posts emotion-free. In fact, I plan on posting writings whenever I find myself in the mood to do so, and to me, there is hardly anything more emotional than writing. I will refrain from posting about work, since my job is rather boring. The only time I will post about work would be if something exceptional happened there which may or may not be related to my job directly. I will try to keep this from turning in to a journal-type blog. I know you readers do not care about my day-to-day life (and if you do, you probably need a life, too).

Edit 1/14/2011: I have decided that I will try to do a blog post at least once a week, though if life intervenes, so be it. Due to the fact that my posts are generally one single-spaced, 11 pt font, typed page, I will try to keep a fixed maximum limit of three posts per week. These times will be very rare and reserved for times where we have had a particularly interesting class discussion/project, or that I have done a lot of thinking. I just wanted to inform you that there won't be twenty posts a week with seven of them being in the same day. Rest assured.End of Edit

At the time, I cannot think of anything extraordinary to inform you all about. After all, I did just have my wisdom teeth removed and am still a bit groggy from the entire ordeal. Even that was quite uneventful; I didn’t talk out of my head, I didn’t have anything strange happen after surgery… Nothing. That must be a sign.

However, I’d like to welcome the New Year in with a blog, allowing myself to chronicle anything that I would like to remember. I would like to welcome you in taking this adventure with me.